Posted by Vincent_QC on September 20, 2010, at 10:28:50
In reply to Re: oh canada!, posted by Maxime on September 19, 2010, at 22:21:47
> Have your doctors looked at the possibility that you have something in addition to the psych problems? Have you had your thyroid tested and all that fun stuff?
Yes Max, had several blood test since 2008... I had anemia with low hemoglobin level last year because of internal hemorrhoids, but the problem is solve now, i'm still loosing a little bit of blood, once in a while, and have one external hemorrhoid, but the Surgeon who do the surgery last november to remove the hemorrhoids will look at that next month...
They also test the thyroid (TSH, TS3, TS4) and it's ok. I also had an big blood test last may, everything was ok at the time, Vit B level are good, testosterone level is high, all vitamins as ok, just the Vit D who was low but I double my dose now and it's ok.
Also all the other stuff like some infections or intoxications to silver filling (mercury) or anything else important has been rulled out...
Last year I was also often exhausted and tired. The Doc told me it was because of the low hemoglobin level and the anemia... since I had the hemorrhoids surgery and stop loosing a lot of blood, the iron level and hemoglobin level are perfect and my energy level is lower than before, I have no energy and don'T know what happen, sometimes I blame the Benzo meds for the sedation, but it's not sedation, I feel physically weak.
I don't know if it's possible, but I had anemia and low hemoglobin level for 2 years (had to wait 2 years to have the hemorrhoids surgery), had to go to the CLSC every week to receive IV iron treatment (Venofer)... and when that happen, the blood don't get enough oxygen so the heart beat faster...and the brain is also affected by the low oxygen level.
Since I had the surgery last november and that my iron and hemoglobin level are ok, my heart beat is most of the time very low, above 55 beat per minute, even if I smoke ... It was never like that before, I always had a heart beat of 80 at rest...
The only time I will get fast pulse rate now will be when I do a panic attack OR when I take my shower... Is it possible that since I have more oxygen in my blood and brains that my heart decrease his pulse rate naturally?
Is it possible that the pain from the surgery I had last november trigger extreme panic disorder and agoraphobia with chronic symptoms like tension headache, dizziness, depersonalisation, numb scalp of the head, eyes pain, numb left arm, sweating hands???
> Anxiety is scary. It feels like something is swallowing you whole. I am glad to hear that you are doing therapy in addition to seeing the psychiatrist. What do you find helps the most? Therapy or meds? I imagine a combination of the two.
Therapy don't help... Exposure is not working on me, i'm worse than before I start the Therapy. Free therapy are like that most of the time, the Psychologist don't have the time to talk with you, they only explain to you how to do exposure exercises and they only talk about that, they don't listen to you... if you start talking about your symptoms they stop you and say it's not good to talk about that!!!
I succeed last week to explain to the Psychologist that exposure was to agressive for me and that I needed to talk... I have at least 3 personnality disorders that waiting to be treat (avoidant personnality, dependent personnality and antisocial personality) and talking about my problems to someone who is not a friend or a member of my family help me more than exposure...
I hate being rushed and forced to do things, and I find it not logical that a Psychologist told me to continue to drive my car when I have a panic attack and don't stop my car or don't call someone with my cellphone when that's happening... First of all, i'm taking high dose of Rivotril, who decrease my cognitives abilities and reflex, so drive is already hard to do so if I add the anxiety on the top of that it's harder to drive... secondly, I don't want to do a car crash and kill someone because I do a panic attack, I don't care about my car or my self, I care about the others... I understand that the Psychologist don't want that I stop driving because she think it will help me to face my fears but too much exposure is not good!!! Yeah, we do a list with more easy exposure situation like taking a walk or stay in the shower when I have a panic attack... but for now just the word exposure make me sick...
I don't just have a panic disorder problem, I have chronic symptoms, some of them are weirds and they affect me every day... I'm expose to anxiety and fears 24 h a day... so I already do exposure...Anyway...
> Do you feel like your pdoc is trying appropriate meds for you? Is there a med that you would like to try but your pdoc doesn't think it will work?
No, the PDoc do the best he can, having another one will not help me...we try everything with the exception of the Luvox, lithium, lamictal and some of older anticonvulsives meds like the Tegretol who are not good for panic/social anxiety... and by everything I mean everything, not just antidepressants meds...
The choice of meds are now limited, extend release are not digest in my intestine because I had a gastric by-pass, and sadly the newer meds are most of the time time release... So will have nothing to help me before new meds will be out in the Canada... Maybe the Valdoxan or the other one Vildazone???
For now i'm trying to be back on the Paxil but for an unknow reason, I can't take more than 0.5 mg of it... last summer I was at 20 mg without any major side-effects except the weight gain... and my panic disorder was under control, I stop it because of the weight gain and before the surgery panic stay under control...and I see now that it was a mistake to stop the Paxil... I was thinking also that the sedation and the extreme fatigue was linked to the Paxil + anemia but I see now it was not the Paxil... I was already tired before it...
> Sorry for all the questions.
That's ok for me ! I like to write! lol