Posted by Maxime on September 10, 2010, at 12:33:00
I am always looking for the right med. Maybe I will go 6 months without changing one. That doesn't mean that I am not depressed for those six months, but it means that I can live it even though I am in pain.
Later, I do need changes to my cocktail. Try this, or try that. I do what I am told, except with the lithium. And then a whole bunch of side effects have to be taken care.
I pain and side effects that doctors say are the result of meds, depression, or hormones. They never test to see which hormone ...
Maybe I don't need to be on all my meds. Maybe I need hormone replacement. Or maybe I have adrenal fatigue.
I just want to feel well. I am 41 years old and I feel like sh*t more of the time. Despite feeling this way, I have accomplised a lot ... I wonder what I would be able to do if I was well and not on pills ...
Bipolar Type 2, ED-NOS, Self-hatred
Being happy doesn´t mean the pain is gone. you just bury it deeper.