Posted by Captain Falcon on April 20, 2010, at 17:46:53
In reply to Re: No insurance - change of environment -meds failed?, posted by evenintherain on April 20, 2010, at 17:15:54
I could e-mail my previous psychiatrist, I was thinking I could ask her about some of the more technical neurotransmitter speak on here about dopamine pathways. The post about pot of gold and dopamine (whatever the name was) was very interesting. Perhaps ideas in there are valid. Although I am hesitant to try new things without a full consult, as if you abuse the dopamine system accidently, it will lead to permanent effects, and I have it bad enough now.
I was failing out of school so hard that I scheduled the minimum courses (4) and dropped two before the end of the semester. I received a C and D in the last two courses. Granted, these were very tough courses. After I was treated though, I took 8-9? (I overloaded) courses all of senior level and got a 3.0 gpa that semester, and A's in every class after that.
I haven't experienced any anger from the medication since that year and a half ago, or whenever I started it, but I have been fluctuating doseages from 450 to 400 to 300, sometimes 200. I have an assorted set of pills from other people that no longer use the prescription [yeah I know it sounds shady =( ]
I generally am a very sciencey person, but desperation breeds new ideas. I am pulling out all the stops (once again) to try and combat this illness. I started up some light tanning, biking daily (if I can continue that), and working out. It's hard to eat well here at my parent's house, they don't eat too well I think, not horrible, but even as a college student I made sure to eat healthy, balanced meals, very little processed food. Not super hippie organic, just avoided processed anything.
I suppose I will have to take the hit and get some wellbutrin. It's not a big deal, I just cannot do this for an extended period of time. I am making sure everything I do is perfect for my career fair and upcoming opportunities, I am hoping one works out.
Hope, a very interesting emotion/idea
PS
I know a bit how even with experience can affect obtaining a job without a finished degree. Perhaps you could finish it with evening classes? Maybe it would give you some closure on unpleasant memories?
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