Posted by Lou Pilder on December 31, 2009, at 13:30:57
In reply to New Year...New Plan, Advice needed...., posted by Buckeye Fan on December 31, 2009, at 8:09:10
> First I would like to wish ALL a Happy New Year!
> Though we are all from different places and in various stages of dealing with our mental health issues, I am grateful to Dr Bob for this site, and for the input and help I have received over the years from those that share on this site.
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> It is my goal to once again become Med Free in 2010.
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> Please excuse me if these questions are redundant,
> I do have trouble remembering my previous posts.
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> I am on 50mgs Pristiq...25 mgs of Librium...and 100 mgs of Trazadone at bedtime.
> Which Med should I taper first? Second?
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> I am tired of the side-effects of long term drug use. I dont recommend this approach to others...nor do I know if it is the right thing for me to do...but I just have to TRY and see if I can function Drug-Free.
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> After more than 12 years of benzo's and anti-depressants, I feel I have lost too much of the real me.
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> My primary fear is two-fold.
> The "real me" may no longer exist....and the current "real me" may not be the me I think I should be.
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> Number 2.....IF I have to reinstate, there appears to be ample evidence that the same drugs may not work upon reinstatement.
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> Again...I know there is no way of knowing if I can successfully do this....nor do i claim this to be advisable.
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> But I just need to try.
> I need to KNOW.
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> BFBF,
You wrote,[...I am tired of the side-effects of long-term drug use...my goal..med free in 2010...nor do I know if it the right thing to do..have to try and see if I can function drug-free...the real me may no longer exist...if I have to reinstate...].
I see a picture of you standing at The Great Gulf. On the other side I see a new life, before drugs, the real you, where I think that there were once green fields and valleys where rivers run, and an everlasting love. Now there are dark clouds and cold winds and you want to see if the real you exists so that you can return to the green fields and the everlasting love. Is that where you are at?
If this is the picture that you see, you can return to the green fields, where that was your home.
Lou
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