Posted by Vincent_QC on November 21, 2009, at 13:38:21
In reply to Re: Vitamin d3 anyone? (niacin) » Vincent_QC, posted by floatingbridge on November 21, 2009, at 11:21:43
> Vincent,
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> I think a low dose of Abilify can be very effective w/ no weight gain. Weight gain seems dose dependent. I gained no weight (and am prone to gaining weight on anything!) on 2 mg of Abilify.
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> Good luck to you--after reading your posts, I realize how your gastric bypass has affected your ability to utilize meds.
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> (And I'm sure you've tried this--but klonopin worked 'deeply' for me in controlling anxiety and panic.)
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> kind regards,
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> fbGreat fb...
Can I ask what is your diagnostic??? Depression? panic attack? GAD, SAD???
You give to me a great hope about the abilify...next step is to find the good AD, who will not make me fat... and who will prevent at least panic attack...
Paxil was the only thing who work for panic attack but was not able to deal with the weight gain and control my food intake...
And for your information Klonopin = Rivotril = Clonazepam... Same med!!!
No benzo meds are able now to stop panic attack on me... I think I used too high dose of them...
Like I Wrote this morning, I try to withdraw the Klonopin now... I was on 8mg/day...add sometimes 2-4mg...so around 10-12mg/day!!! That's a high dose no?...
When I start the Klonopin back in august 2005, it was the first time I was on a benzo med... I was entering at the University for the fisrt time of my life and I was feeling really great... I had no fear... was able to walk alone on the street without carying about the others peoples... BUT I also start drinking alcohol a lot more than before...So I guess I developpp an addiction faster because of the alcohol...
The combo of Klonopin alone at daytime and Klonopin + alcohol at night time was wonderfull for the first month only...2mg day divided in 0.5 mg doses...
After one month, my brains became used to it and I had to call my PDoc at the time and ask for more... He agree to double the dosage and RX 1mg pills x 4 times day, so 4mg... it worked for almost 5 months like that... Was able to go to the university, work at the same time, had a BIG social life for the first time of my life, a lot of friends... was going out 4 night a week... it was perfect for me...
Then, the 4mg begin to stop working... I had panic attack while I was drunk or just when I was taking the public transportation or walk on the street... at school it was a disaster... I had to do a lot of team work and oral presentations...where we had work to present to the others students in front of a jury made of teatchers... anyways...
I call again my PDoc in january 2006 and ask for more... he agree again and double the dosage... On 8mg, it was not working very well...I ending my winter session at the university but had a lot of anxiety problem... Had to keep only 2 courses... was not able to do more....
Had also a lot of problems with my friends and my roommattes... so I had to look for another appartement and a new roommate to stay with... At the same time, I entering into a summer session at the university... I choose to do it because I wanted to make my 3 years program faster than in 3 years... anyway bad decision... I always want to do more than I can!!!
I stop drinking in june 2006... my PDoc (who was my family Doctor at the time) put me on the Paxil...but start it on a high dosage... since I tend to be sensible to side-efects... I was not able to stay on the Paxil for more than one month...
After, I begin to have daily headache, who never dissepear after... I have migraine and headache 1 day on 2... Like now, I have a migraine since 1 week... nothing remove it... Advils, Tylenols... I guess it's tension headache???
So I stay on the Klonopin 8mg day until june 2007... I return to my parent house for the summer to take a break from school and work and the new city where I was living...
All my friends, who was more partying guys, stop calling me and speak to me, all of this because I was not going out anymore... So I was a lot alone at the time in a big city that was not mine... So that's why I decide to return to my parents house... at least for the summer of 2007...
Anxiety and social became not tolerable... I was statying home for days, hiding in my room...I ask my Doc to withdraw the Klonopin because I was feeling nothing from it... He agree but wanted to change it with the Valium...
So from June 2007 until august 2007, I succeed to stop the Rivotril and lowering my Valium dosage to only 12mg a day, who is a very low dosage of Valium... for me of course...
The Doc put me on the Remeron SD (oral dissolution) 30mg for a little while... was suppose to help with the anxiety... but the only thing the Remeron do is to make me able to sleep at night... the Doc increase the dosage of the Remeron to 45mg and 60mg...
In the meantime, I had to return in my appartement into the other city and start school again for my last year... When I return in my appartement, I found out that my roommatte didn'T pay the rent for months and take the money I give to him to use it for itself...
Things turn out very bad and I had to stop school... had to go in front of the court because of the rent... I have a debt of more than 4000$ because of that roommatte... the lease was sign by me and the roommatte, mean that I was responsible for his part of the rent and he was responsible for my part of the rent also... He dissepear in the USA, since he have a double citizenship (Canadian-USA)...
I Decide to return living at my parents house again... Enter into a intensive group therapy for 2 months in nivember 2007... was put on Prozac 20mg and Remeron 30mg + 12mg of Valium for a little while...
When I ending my therapy, the PDoc increase the Prozac to 30mg and stop the Remeron... I was not able to deal with the increase anxiety and worse social phobia comming from the 30mg of Prozac and I was feeling nothing positive from it... So I Stop it cold turkey... I gained weight a lot ...was 180 pounds before I start the Remeron in august 2007 and when I stop the Prozac and the Remeron I was at 220...
In february 2008 I was put on the Zoloft...up to the maximum dosage of 250mg day... I had another major weight gain on it and worse social phobia.... I start acting strangely and I ask my PDoc at the time to change my Valium for something stronger , again!!!
I try severals benzo meds (Serax, Librium, Klonopin, Bromazepam, Ativan...) and I ending on the Xanax... Stop the Zoloft because it was making me worse in general... At the same time, start to be used to the Xanax very fast... goes from 4mg to 6 mg day to 8 mg day, 10 mg day... and I ending at 12mg day...
PDoc put me on the Effexor-XR in june 2008... Start at 75mg...increase at 150mg, 225 mg, 300mg, 375mg ... to end at 450mg...without notice any good effect on me... BUT it was weight neutral... In fact, I stop eating real food and I was just eating whey protein... I lost more than 40 pounds in 1 1/2 month... I return to my normal 180 pounds and I was pround of it!!!
In general the Efexor-XR was making me more anxious...more agited...so I stop it...
Around the same time, july 2008, I enter at the hospital for high addiction from the Xanax... I ask the psychiatric departement to help me to withdraw it... but they had no place for me... I had to wait there for weeks, in a closed room, they don't give the permission to peoples to going out to smooke a cigarette and I can't stay in a close room with peoples that I don't know for weeks... so I just say no and return at home and withdraw the Xanax alone...
Took 2 months do achieve it...I decrease the Xanax by 2mg a week... and when I was only on 2mg of Xanax, I stop it completly and start again the Valium at a low dosage of 20mg... and I stay on the Valium 20mg for a little while...
Until I had another PDoc who decide to put me on severals AD's who was the worse I try in my life...
Parnate was the worse of them!!! DANGEROUS !!!
I start to have panic attack while I was driving the car and when I was alone at home in the spring of 2009... In june 2009 I ask my regular Doctor to put me on the Klonopin again... why I do it?? I don'T know... I was taking that after more than one year on the Valium, the Klonopin will be effective again... but what a mistake I do!!!!
So I start the Klonopin again at 4mg a day... increase at 6mg day... ending at 8mg a day, without having any help from it for my panic attack and anxiety...
Ask my PDoc to be put on the Paxil in july 2009 cause it was the only AD who saved my life when I was 19 yo (i'm now 33yo)... I start the Paxil in july 2009 at 10mg day at bedtime... I was feeling a lot tired...mentally and physically... but it worked very well...
Increase at 20mg day in august...it was very effective to prevent the panic attack and lowering my blood pressure and pulse rate also...
Start gain weight very fast... notice it with my clothes... I had to buy new pants and shirts... I had to stop the gym because I was to tired...
I had also a problem with blood loosing from hemmoroids , anemia and low hemoglobin level since a while also...was put on the wating list for a surgery to remove all the hemmorroids, that surgery is call "Hemoroidectomie" in french... don't know the name in english...
My weight was 209 pounds in the begining of august 2009 and I go up to 239 pounds when I stop the Paxil...
I stop the Paxil at the end of september because of the weight gain... Try the Cymbalta, was not able to take it for more than 3 days... Try to be back on the Lexapro...without having a good effect on my panic attack problem...
Had my surgery for my bleeding hemmorroids the last 3 november... was so painfull... I don'T wish that to my worse ennemy!!! I do a lot of panic attack when it was time to go pee or poo, because of the pain and the increase pulse rate the pain was producing on me, and I was not able to use pain killer like Dilaudid or Oxycontin... they make me sick and not stop the pain!!!
Since I had my surgery, I ask to be put on the Luvox and ask also to change my Klonopin 8mg day to Valium...
So i'm now in a withdraws phase of Klonopin since last monday...
My Pdoc wanted that I stop my Klonopin completly and replace it with 80mg of Valium divided into 4 doses of 20mg/day, but I'm not able to go out of the house in the evening, or just drive the car, without having panic attack...so for now I keep 1mg of Rivotril in the evening, because I only go out of the house in the evening... and I try to take less than the 80mg of Valium a day...
My goal is to return to 20mg of Valium...in one or 2 months... will do it without putting me into intense stressfull situation...
I'm suppose to start the Luvox at 50mg day divided in 2 doses...but i'm scare!!! I read a lot of bad stories about it!!! I fear also to gain weight again...I always have in my minds the fact that I need to start a strict diet to loose weight because I feel really bad with myself and my body!!! I'm tired to be tired...
So that's the story...so far...
And with all those benzo meds inside me, I do insomnia!!!! Strange no???? They are suppose to be sedative... especially the valium... yeah, they make me feel tired... but I can't sleep!!! And I continue to do insomnia at night time...
I used before small dosage of Seroquel at bedtime to prevent insomnia but it's stop working last summer...
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