Posted by Sigismund on August 8, 2009, at 15:38:16
In reply to Re: Am I on the right track at least?, posted by Dima on August 7, 2009, at 10:13:33
>The social anxiety is just a fear of going into most social situations because I have nothing to say and it's hard for me to think of conversation. In one on one conversation, I'm almost never enjoying it, but rather just consider it work trying to think of what to say.
I suppose you see other people who look as if they are enjoying the social world? It's not surprising that you should find it frightening. You didn't say you found it frightening, but I think that all these people are distinctly scary. It would, of course, be nicer if it was not felt to be so. The popular culture, the idea of normal, everyone will try to bring you to a consensus reality from which point there is no alternative but to see yourself as abnormal and in need of treatment. But saying that doesn't make it any less awful.
In "Awakenings", Oliver Sacks talks about L-dopa. I wouldn't take too much.