Posted by Sigismund on August 3, 2009, at 20:16:58
In reply to Re: Sorry to be dramatic but considering suicude, posted by Alexanderfromdenmark on August 3, 2009, at 19:07:27
Surely somehow, eventually, you will be able to find a doctor who will prescribe agomelatine.
I forget if you have trouble sleeping.
If you can get yourself well enough to be able to do things that make you feel somewhat better, and so that you can treat your problems with benign medications (mainly herbal medicines and the usual alternative things), you may be able to turn around the vicious circle.
Your experience with psychiatry has been terrible, but you have learned a great deal from it. When I was young the future stretched ahead endlessly and painfully and I couldn't imagine getting to be 28. It's not so odd. As an adult just going into a children's party, it is striking how sociable it all is, like they are all on cocaine.....they are so excited. It's not hard to see that such hard-wired pressures for socialisation may predispose some of us to go under when it doesn't work out as we need it to. Life is an endurance test, life is a waste of time, life is wonderful, pretend it's real, try not to worry and so on and so forth. You are young and you can get better, because you have learned a great deal.