Posted by shasling on June 6, 2009, at 1:58:30
well i tell you what i went out for the first time in a long time and was my self. It was great, my freinds and everything. They are interesting and i love em. All of them are different. I had a great day.
It was kind of unhealthy, but who cares lol. My friends eat alot of fast food. Plus, dont judge, we got bored and went to a hookah bar.You had no reason to inform us it was a "hooker" bar,that is a insultful phrase.A simple bar visit would have proved you point just as easy minus "hooker bar"
I was nervous about the whole idea since I didnt know if it was going to make me real anxious or not. But neway, it was so freaking relaxing and just was awesome. I told my friends about everything, struggles and all and basically all the stuff ive been sort of sheilding away from them.
anyway thats the last time i think ill do the hookah thing. But anyway best day ever!!
So you spend a day in remission at a hooker bar,again tmi i dont think anyone needed to know you were at any thing other then a bar.I dont think its really a secret or anything, i saw this coming with myself. I knew i was getting better but im really impatient. I figured out something psychologically about myself that just blew me away and from that point Ive been much better. I figured out I am a controlling person, hence my social anxiety and eating disorder, substance abuse past, compulsive lying.
Social anxiety to me is just a simple control issue (sorry if you disagree).
You should state you BELIEVE social anxiety is a mind control issue unless you can dispute scans showing otherwise.Stating it the way you do proposes it as a fact,so "I" feel its dangerous misconception to post it as a fact rather a opinion.social phobics need to control peoples opinions, and they cant so they get super overwhelmed. Thats why social phobics like animals alot, because they can control the opinion of the dog/cat. Because the animals cant talk so we dont feel anxious around them.
And substance abuse is another control issue, people have to use a substance to bring out a false self so they can control peoples opinions. They need a substance to make them talkative and "happy" so they can trick people and hide their true self because they are ashamed.
There is a sbustance abuse board,and for a 17 year old you sure speak in a tone of fact on a disease youre not possably old enough to fully understand.
But really they shouldnt be ashamed because they are great people, but they have a disorder.
I mean just finding this out is insane, its like another enlightenment. Im finally making the progress ive wanted to for a year or years now.And hey i reccomend this. I found it looking up control on google. Its a good one.
http://www.easycalm.com/?hop=cffshpgrlBut hey this is a really deep issue so I mean Idk if everyone is going to understand.
I know when I first had an eating disorder and social phobia, a psychiatrist gave me a book about OCD and i didnt understand. And my therapist said stuff about control too. I didnt even understand at the time. So obviously some people wont see it in themselves.Anyway good luck and love u all
I noticed your first post stated you were in remission,no "how" kinda like a hold tight for the answer folks thing.You never actualy state how you came around,you dance around it and then paste a link to a over ovious pay product.
If your p-d thats your opinion,however my feeling is i see right through you.
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