Posted by garnet71 on March 27, 2009, at 11:06:48
In reply to Re: Going downhill again - what to do? » Garnet71, posted by SLS on March 27, 2009, at 8:10:26
I haven't ruled out that possibility. A few things keep me from agreeing to that diagnosis though (besides that therapists and doctors never attached that diagnosis to me).
For example, I've never in my entire life felt like I didn't need about 8 hours of sleep. Sometimes I even prefer 10 hours of sleep, and if I don't set an alarm, I've had times in that past where I would sleep exactly 10 hrs (when med free). Years of not getting enough sleep, for me average 5-6 hours is not enough sleep, was brutal to me; I remember being tired all the time. My circadian clock is not compatible with regular life. My average, natural pattern is sleep at about 2; up at about 10 or 11. I've had many jobs where I had to get up at 3:00 to 4:00 am--no matter how much sleep I got, I felt like sh*t all day. It was only when I had job opportunities in the case of shift work where I could work 3-8 that I realized I felt much better all the time, most productive with that sleep/wake pattern. I did work 9-5 or 8-5, etc., for a number of years; still, I often felt tired at work, although boredom was a factor as well.
I've never had mania either. Have had some hypomania, but people w/o mental conditions get that too. It was noticable to me when I quit taking xxRIs-I'd get noticable hypomania right after quitting, but it would always dissipate when the xxRIs got out of my system; referring to 'noticeable'.
The concept of the mixed state/catch all BPII diagnosis, I'm not sure about.
Of course everything in my body could be screwed up from stress, lifestyle, and psych meds, in addition to illicit drug experimentation, though sans addiction problems, at a young age.
Can anxiety be a primary symptom of BP? That's my primary issue. I can compensate for ADD stuff outside of school, but the anxiety and ADD go hand in hand.
I don't know Scott.