Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on March 15, 2009, at 1:31:55
Loggin...in
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Avoidant_personality_disorder
Topic, but what i'm maybe going to discuss is getting a good health insurace, one that will, actaully "know" you.
I see doctor's just "jet down" ok....you have this, take this Seroquel, or whatever substance that's prescibed. Yet, my own belief, it's a psychiatrist who, can only go, throught facts, somethings they cannot understand
Collapse, of years, of happieness, but just one thing that bother me...
After that, it's not worth putting up.Feeling of it's self, the brain, the heart, is going to "fracture". There a barrier, and it can't keep taking hit's after it's damaged. I don't ever want to start losing track, but i do.
I pulled out some VHS, going through stuff, needed to cleaned, 10-15years old. Ran across a tape, it was BlockBuster take called "KidPrint", obvious...it's idenification on film. But i was 9, didnt know, but i just smiled, i started at that TV screen so long. And it was a buddy system, created just that year, where you can call someone, mentor, to actaully TELL and listen understanding of life.
"Trust Your Feelings"-I will trust my feelings and talk to adults about problems that are too big for me to handle on my own.
-If I believe something is wrong, I know and trust alot of people who care about me and will listen and believe me.
-I know it is never too late to get help, and i will coninue asking those I trust until i get the help I need, I am never alone.
Copyright 1987, 1996 Blockbuster Video, 1-800-843-5678
__________________________________________I look back and, wanted to hang around someone, who...was just an older person, that maybe out of their sake would, well....really alot of people come and go, so that's irrevent. And....as to my mother and stepfather, watch life go away themself, because they are filthy, and get "pleasure" of having control over BANK accounts, keys to the car, and at some points, that is what made....me hit the roof. And basically just subligual message, you not existing. Ket they hid, "vital" infomation. And refuse and can make up any story they could, to just cover their butt, not suprised, my credid card has swipes i didnt make.....but that's just part of it.
But, that's not the point, make no big deal of it. It's just i see "control" gives pleasure to people. And to live to their rules, moral or not.
Anyways,
Quantam Reality, can i go back? 99% sure no. If i did, i would get away from that woman when i got chance. But, i've heard this saying "go back" Start again.What Dreams May Come, knowing what you can have, the Joy, Happiness, serinity, but it all can go down. Yet, self-sustaning endurance, walking that line of faith. Dopamine plays a key part in survival, along with norepinephrine, because those nuerotransmitters are "survival" instinct. Motivation to survive and live, and know all of these former things, will pass away.
I am normal....but inside you have accept what's going on, and take it to higher circumstances to get it over, yet inflation ego doesnt work, your faking your own mirror. The mind slits or blocks it's damaged side, "Quarintined". And recovery has to take place.When someone is....well, are on the verge of mental death (from things fallin, collapsing). Would it be rather, just let the collapse happen? or postpone it?
Of course you know, that people find control and it gives them "pleasure" to have control. Even though this person is dying right in there eyes, it's a self-denied dictator. Sadly...that's how some Psychiatrists, well today, i think it's more just the job it's self, rather than personal help.
If they just heard what the hell was going on, at home with a beast. Some would sit back, pull out A BIG pack of beer, and dinner, "don't put your faith in someone else, no person can be there" It's God....who is there/here/ omnipresent, but...can't discuss that on a board. And the old Original Series or 90210, early season's. Because that was what i grew up seeing "relationships", working with people.-One error can multiply into multiple errors, and then it top'les itself. Have to undo every one.
Ignore all negative thoughts, for a while, so you can get what ever needs to be done, at that time, then talk it out, write it, cry it, or put everything on your mind on a sheet of paper, that way it's logged, and you can see connections with emotions.
And also....give or take
Closing your eyes, and just thinking of a place, you want to be, and people who love you, there. This releases endorphins, feeling love.
So, that's it.
rerember, there's is people, who have had worse. Suck it up. I taught myself this.
rj
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