Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on March 14, 2009, at 1:42:13
In reply to Re: A note to all babbler that knew me since 2004 » rjlockhart04-08, posted by Phillipa on March 13, 2009, at 21:04:09
do you realize that right after i posted this...there was some attack, i had read all this stuff. Some sick, person. I didnt post this, but in the past, there have been "events" that almost all logical accusation, "boomoo did it" (that's me). When really Patty and Sue, who look alike did it. (It's an example, i get blamed for people's failure) Baaahhh! that Boophoo!
And i've get it out, people seem to have a magnet towards me, but not nice, that's why i had to change every aspect of change.
Hey, this is not....i'm up just lookin on the
It was a note, just to everyone. I hope...alot people spy on my stuff, and now i have to have the "third eye" or the all-seeing eye to know who does this. But, it's not Christanity. But i need to use it, people have played tricks, horrid, over time.But yet all this info on the medication was correct, but it's not correct on dosing. Sick...people, love to toil with someone's mind.
Anyways, Phillipa, i've just lost, alot of "memory", i dont feel the same at all, yet, i'm enhanced in writing, and explaining things, but i lost my "cheer" personality. I don't know what happened, not my fault, (could be....n/think about) but i learned something "never blame others".
But in a counter act, "Who ever points the finger is their logical opinion of someone, but it also represents who they are" - rj
I've had a mental collapse, and it's unexplainable, think of a relm where everything is gone, that loved, and now predetor's who in the past, "smiled" but they, just gathered info, because i have/had diareeaa of the mouth, (sorry that's distusting) means i tell everything what i'm thinking about.
Anyways...
I'm MAD, and you know, i've posted here long, well 5-6 years, and i cannot believe those posts, or "Journals for help" are on google.
First - stick head in toilet,
2nd - stick the person who's playing games with me, down the toilet into the sewer. Who ever you are stop f-n! with me!I have thought of.....moving out, well, at this point, it's a "survival" to get out, this place is chaos, screaming, more violence than you would see in movies, and bitterness.
I just need support again, this time, words i put down, they need to be accoutable for, not "ok" then not do it. I also researched why i do that, what's "indepth procrastination?" - getting lost in time, and failing.
Yet, the aspects, of nutcase here, held me back. So.....
Well everyone have a great day, and danm if this goes on the net, i'll have a siezure or something, too much embarassment, and control, and maniulation, and bitterness. It changed the whole corse of life, one or more choices, are like a ripple effect, make one fraction diffrent, it change paths. I need to think of Rj Equation...what happened, right by laptop is writings, and equations, i dont know what happened. And a KJV bible.
So....it's late.
Phillipa, i'm great your the support here, there is no support, more so abuse from the past, continued, till i started having "blow out's" at "nutcase" who took everything out on me.
Evilness resided in this house, and grew. Now i want to pick up a sword of truth, but you know really...she's made comments, i was a mistake, (not exact) but emphezing it, and i just flat out told her, get the documents sign me off, somehow i'll ask Madonna if she will be a Godmother. I mean.....the sense of reality, nothing will change, just "get out". But yet it's 2009. not 2005.
anyways gotta go.................whew!
thanks
rj
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