Posted by crittercuddler on December 30, 2008, at 17:26:46
I have recently begun yet another anti-depressant trial. For 3 years now I have been doing this over and over again, never staying on anything for more than a few days and possibly for a week or two. The reason I discontinue the medication is two fold. First, I have really bad side effects even at real small doses. These include severe jitteriness, jumpiness, tremors, insomnia, and restlessness. Besides that, I know that I also have a fear of medications that is further
complicating things.The drug I am trialing now is Zoloft. I have been taking 25mg for 5
days. I am also taking Trazodone 50mg at night to help me sleep for 7 days.I am scared because I don't feel right. I have a strong intuition that I am making a mistake continuing to take these medicines. Yet, I
don't completely trust my intuition anymore because sometimes it is masquerading as my OCD. I have this intuition because of the
pronounced side effects I get described above that no one my psychiatrist treats seems to get, plus more specifically because I don't feel like myself. I feel detached. I feel like everything is
surreal. I swear that I felt this way and then started worrying about it and not vice a versa, so that makes me think my fear is legitmate.
An anti-depressant shouldn't make me feel worse. I have been crying a lot. I am so scared.I just want to know if anyone else has had this specific problem...where they felt really detached and strange and very scared...with an
impending sense of doom when trying to get on an anti-depressant.
Please share. Did it turn out okay?-michelle
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