Posted by ClearSkies on March 27, 2008, at 20:07:52
I finally admitted that my prolonged bout with depression was probably not situational, and called my pdoc for a phone consult. As I had been at 45mg of Remeron, we decided to increase it to 60mg and see if that makes an improvement.
I've been incapable of feeling any enthusiasm for any of my usual life pleasures. I'm not interested in eating, cooking, keeping my fridge or pantry stocked, keeping myself looking presentable, and I do my darndest not to even look in the mirror at all. I really miss all these things about myself. I'm usually a creative and inventive cook in the kitchen. I usually like to find new recipes to try. I just haven't cared for a few months now.
I'm also much more prone to being triggered by my PTSD stuff, which crops up at the most inopportune times. And I'm crying, generally, more than usual.
At least my anxiety hasn't crept up along with the depression - I suppose that's some thing.
Fingers crossed that this medication increase helps to get me feeling more myself and less like the blob who is pushing through the hours of the day. Functioning, but not in least bit thriving. I wouldn't mind a little bit of thriving again.
CS
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