Posted by iforgotmypassword on January 13, 2008, at 0:02:46
i feel like every function i am trying to push in my head won't work, and like nearly all that i do do is involuntary.
actions/functions that make final pass are rare, and random,unreliable,useless. i even feel my breathing stop. like the sudden feeling when i wake up from sleep paralysis.
i am very grateful for the posts i do make, but i have no idea how i make them. i am stiff in everything, in my physical feeling, and action.
things i can do are usually: walk or talk. which i can do with immesurable continuous and vaulting drive, but not in the sense of being voluntary or knowing why i am doing it (akathitic is the best description, nerve racking, can't do can't NOT do. no voluntary. i am very lucky for making this post, but it will be one of the uncountable many that bring on no resolution. terrible terrible feeling that i will be stuck here forever)
poster:iforgotmypassword
thread:806100
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/20080105/msgs/806100.html