Posted by Amandafran on January 21, 2007, at 12:10:29
Im afraid I might be starting to experience signs of Schizophrenia and iM getting really scared. I feel like my life is a movie and that I am really not living my life. Every night when I sleep and dream I wake up sometimes not knowing if it was actually a dream and the effects of the dream affect my entire day.
Also, ever since 9/11 I have been seeing on the clock 9:11 and everytime that happens something bad eventually happens....for me, I had emergency surgery over two years ago...Maybe I am just being paranoid or superstitious but I am really freaked out. I dont believe myself to have special powers...but I do believe that I can pretty much tell when something bad is going to happen whenever I look at the clock and it says 9/11. Beause it has always happened that way.
Should I be concerned?? Can someone who is Schizophrenic please write to me and tell me what it is like and what I should be looking for?
Im already BPD Borderline Personality...but I just got to where I could mention this to my therapist and it has been happening a lot...Im just scared that I am slowly making my way to being committed in a mental hospital and that scares me. I didnt want to tell him out of fear that he was going to start looking for another diagnosis for me..and I think that he is...I need help.
I need someone who can to tell me what I need to be looking for and or if by reading this it already sounds like there is something going on with me...Does anyone ever get the feeling that their life is one big movie? I told him I can seperate myself from those around me and "watch" them live their life and wonder what I am doing or why I cant live my life like they do. Am I the only one who has experienced this?
Help me please.
Thanks..
poster:Amandafran
thread:724796
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