Posted by dreamboat_annie on December 5, 2006, at 18:55:22
In reply to Re: pseudoname (trigger), posted by ClearSkies on December 5, 2006, at 10:58:20
I'll always wonder if we could have helped him.
This is no way meant to be cold or unfeeling. It has taken me a long time to come to this realization, and even longer to accept it, although it may be a bit of a generalization. To start, two people close to me committed suicide, one of my best friends lost two family members to suicide, another friend lost her sister to suicide, two other acquaintances took their own lives, and, when I was 12, the mother of two children I babysat committed suicide. When my sister-in-law took her own life, I, too, thought I could have done more. It took me a long time to get over her death, but eventually I realized, that she was at peace - a peace she had never known in life. I think that at some point an individual who has suffered and struggled with mental illness, and been beaten down time after time, only to keep trying to get up again, comes to a point of sweet surrender. They have fought the good fight, but just can’t do it anymore. I think that, perhaps, what people close to the individual mistake for a lifting of depression may actually be a period of relief for the individual who has made a decision to escape the shackles of depression (or other mental illness) and end their emotional pain.
I’m sorry if this was inappropriate. It is not my intention to hurt anyone with my views.