Posted by jparsell82 on September 17, 2006, at 23:31:01
I have major cognitive issues. I have memory problems, problems focusing, learning problems, and I lose my thoughts frequently. I can't seem to retain anything I read/hear/watch for very long. I've been diagnosed with ADD and taken ADD online tests that show I have ADD. Adderall doesn't seem to help much. In fact, it seems like I lose my thoughts easier with it. Such as... I'm writing a paper and thinking of what to write and how to word my sentence and during all this thinking I lose track of it and forget what I had in mind. This happens all the time with various things, not just writing. I space out frequently. With everything I just seem to feel a constant pressure, whether it be reading, writing, talking, listening. I have to have a silent room with just myself in it and have a comfortable seat just to be able to try to concentrate... and it still doesn't go all that well. It seems like I constantly have this inner energy going all the time, I'm also extremely impatient, hypersensitive, etc. I can never calmly have a conversation, read, learn, write, work, etc. I always feel pressured and can't concentrate or focus on the task at hand. I have no desire/drive/discipline/motivation to do anything involving any kind of work.
As I said, Adderall doesn't seem to help much. SSRIs I absolutely couldn't stand... they made me more spacey and disconnected, they also made it hard to concentrate. Anti-psychotics didn't help any... Zyprexa just knocked me out and I got Akathisia from Seroquel and various doses of Abilify. Klonopin game me major memory issues plus no drive or motivation to do anything.
Is there anything out there that could help me calmly focus on what's in front of me? Whether it be talking & listening to someone or writing/reading or working? Something that could calm my impatience and restlessness and allow me to think with less pressure? Something that doesn't cause other cognitive issues? I post here once in a great while... I wish I could be of more help to others on this site but I'm having so much trouble dealing with myself. I feel that if somehow I could fix this cluster of problems that I've tried to explain here, I could more easily overcome my Social Anxiety and other things.
Thanks,
Josh
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