Posted by willyee on September 2, 2006, at 22:04:48
Does anyone who has either taken meds for a long time,or simply been "sick" a long time,what i mean by the latter is a period of years where you simply notice yourself get worse and worse off.
Well i notice latly that i used to enjoy sometimes at least a walk to the store,id feel my surroundings of the outside,the smell would leak in,and id walk slow,as if the walk was some small form of therputic reliaf.
This was not an every night thing,but it was quite often,NOW however i notice when i go out,i have this imaginaery goal to get right back,im even on inside energy surge with a simple walk to the store.Dont get me wrong,i maybe be calm on the outside,but again my inside is not at ease as it once was when a walk to the store was nice.
It feels im in a surreal state,like i dont even actualy notice what is around me,yess i see,i react to it,but i dont NOTICE it,i know someone can relate to that feeling,for example you drive some where,know enough to drive saftly and properly,but not really enjoy the drive,or feel as if you are driving,i myself can apply this to lots of things,looking at my pet fish,now it is just glances with no reactions from me like i used to.
I wonder is it the medication,taking its toll,is it the depression itself growing,is it the fact that ive lost outside factors that helped me in the past,i just dont know.
I do remeber one thing i used was L-THEANINE,this crosses the blood brain barrier and is said to raise levels of both dopamine and gaba.
The drawback to it was it was not instant,in fact it was as if for me i had to endure a wordsened period,and long term i noticed the positve effects,which were greater sociabilaity,the desire to be OUT AND ABOUT more,the desire to interact etc.Id notice this hours after taking the supplement,and with the way things are rocking up and down with me i suppose ill be heading to vitamin shoppe to throw away yet more of my hard earned money on this never ending struggle.
Dont expect much of a response other than hope someone reads it and thinks to themselve ...yeah i feel like that too,unless its just me on this one.
poster:willyee
thread:682491
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