Posted by rjlockhart on June 12, 2006, at 17:14:29
Ok,
What i am about to say i have never told anyone before. So this is coming out.
Alot of times i get this feeling of homocidal (i have never had these thoughts before) to people that blow me off, say something like "thats your problem" and dont want to be around. I get horrible thoughts almost pleasure what i am going to do them.
Picturing me cussing them out in public, at church there was this guy that was a leader, but wanted to call him a damn hippocirite piece of sh*t.
What i am talking about is varies people that are in church, or that i know in life, not here on psychobabble. Even though i have felt....never mind. Sometimes people seem like they have the wrong impression, well maybe its the way i interpret it.
Do i have multiple personalites? I never, well that couldnt because i know im still me. Not someone else.
But how can i come from this smiling generous guy to Jacylnhyde, personality switch because i feel i was humilated by someone, and i want to torchure them with a smile on my face. No, no no no no im not going crazy. this isnt happening.
Ok, to go more into detail, i feel im not socially well know what to say. And i feel rejected, but i get mad about it. Its my fault im like this. I just want to stick my head in the toilet. Well one time i thought about dragging a and beating the HELL out of a person.
I am NOT like this, NO please dont get the wrong impression on me. I am not anykind of psychotic person. This is just an abnormality.
I just really need some advice, im a very nice guy.
Here this is my picture: http://mmcconathy87.tripod.com/matt_mcconathys_photo_album/index.album?i=15
Willyyee i need to talk to you, just about this, here's my email address
dorktionary1@aol.com
yes i know its a .........ROFL crazy posting name, my other one isnt working.I just think you maybe a person to talk to about this. I've read your posts.
Anyways, this is it.
Please dont think anything diffrent about me. I just had to come out.
Matt
poster:rjlockhart
thread:656063
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