Posted by KCSLL on February 3, 2006, at 18:39:18
First of all I apologize for making this such a long posting…If anyone can help me I would really appreciate it. I am looking for suggestions on which antidepressant I should try.
I have been extremely unmotivated and depressed for quite some time now. I cannot get out of bed in the mornings and feel like sleeping all of the time. My moods are very up and down but for the most part I am incredibly unhappy and completely unmotivated. I am not suicidal although, I can honestly understand now more than ever why people end their own lives.
I work on a computer out of my house which is a huge part of my problem. I cannot change my job mostly because I do not know what else I could do and also because I do have the opportunity to make good money. I used to enjoy my work and now I hate it. Things have gotten so bad that I think I am going to start losing all of my customers. I start things and cannot finish them and therefore cannot charge for work I have done. I am so behind on deadlines and on promises I have made to get work done and I just cannot do the work.
I have a 3 1/2 year old, I am a single mother (with no support from the father) and I am scared because I think I am going to lose everything. I have always had perfect credit but now I have gotten myself so behind in payments with some credit cards that I cannot answer my phone if I do not recognize the number. This is a result of not having any motivation to work or to do anything.
I have absolutely no social life and I rarely leave my house unless I have to. Anyone that has known me cannot believe how I have changed. I have always been very outgoing and very social and have always had a lot of friends. Now I feel so alone and really don't have anyone to talk to. Also, I don't even know what to say any more if I do get an opportunity to talk about my problems because I am so sick of complaining about the same things for so long.
I think a big reason I have become this way is from being a single parent. I have had to work so hard to pay for everything that I could never do anything socially and I let the rest of my life fall apart. I worked every opportunity I had because I did not have another choice. I still had a hard time keeping up financially and slowly I got into more and more debt. Because I worked so much I think I got burnt out and maybe I will start to enjoy my work again one day.
I am currently taking Dexedrine for ADD. I take 2 (5mg) pills three times a day. Dexedrine should help me feel motivated and it does a little but I find I need to take 2 1/2 or 3 (5mg) pills to feel any motivation. Because Dexedrine is so controversial I don’t think my doctor would increase my dosage.
Sorry this is so long. I wanted to explain a bit of my situation so anyone that could offer advice would be able to understand me a bit.
I am going to see my doctor to ask for an antidepressant. My doctor does not know a lot about them so I want to go in knowing exactly what I want. If anyone has any suggestions on what I should try that will help me feel better and feel motivated please let me know.
Thank you very much for your help!
poster:KCSLL
thread:606003
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