Posted by 4WD on January 8, 2006, at 22:09:27
I was on Celexa 10mg and Klonopin .5mg daily and doing only fair but functional most of the time. About three weeks ago I became very depressed (more than usual) and couldn't stop crying and was suicidal. My pdoc raised my Celexa dosage to 20mg and the Klonopin to 1.5mg daily. For a few days I felt better and then I started feeling like I always had 10 things going at once and couldn't focus on any of them. I was super agitated and hyper and wired. I was waking up too early and sleeping badly. I was obsessing over things. I was less depressed but still very unhappy at times. The 1.5mg Klonopin (triple what I'd been taking) felt like sugar pills. (.5mg t.i.d.)
I reduced the Celexa back down to 10mg (I called him and asked to reduce it to 15mg - I didn't think he'd like the idea of reducing it to 10) but I was so freaking out I had to lower it quickly. After about three days, I was able to lower the Klonopin back down to 1 mg.
After another couple of days, now here I am. Not wired or hyper any more but deeply, deeply depressed today. Suididal depressed. And scared. The kind of depressed where you feel like the deepest grief you can imagine along with the deepest guilt along with dread and fear in the pit of your stomach.
Did I become hypomanic? How do you treat med induced hypomania? How do you treat depression when SSRIs or SNRIs improve the depression but make you so freaked out you can't sit still?
Low dose (37.5) Effexor is the only drug that didn't do this to me but it pooped out on me a couple of years ago.
I feel crazy and hopeless.