Posted by spriggy on October 7, 2005, at 23:27:39
In reply to Re: can someone describe agitated depression please » spriggy, posted by 4wd on October 7, 2005, at 21:04:53
i'm not on any meds for mental health; I have tried Lexapro, Paxil, Wellbutrin, Lamictal, Depakote, Seroquel, Xanex, Ativan, and Klonopin.I *think* my main problem is unbearable, overwhelming anxiety (my mind feels like it's on constant "high alert" and overtime) which then makes me depressed because I literally feel trapped in my own mind when this hits me.
I don't do this EVERY day- but it comes in waves.. Then when it's gone for a while, I think I'm all better, so when it returns again, I feel even more discouraged.
My diagnosis: Well, I don't think I've ever been properly evaluated.
My gp suspected I was "bipolar" because of my response to SSRi's and my family history- sent me to a psychologist who evaluated me and concluded I was not bipolar just had an anxiety disorder.When I was on Lexapro I went through horrific rapid cycling daily (sometimes hourly) until I became completely and utterly suicidal for the first time in my life. WEnt into the psych ward for 4 days until the psychiatrist concluded I didn't have a mental disorder, I was experiencing akathasia from the Lexapro.
So I have no clue what's wrong with me. I think I'm scared to really know.
I am physically sick as well; Epstein Barr, possible lupus, fibromyalgia, etc..
So could those health conditions be creating this? I don't know. I have fevers EVERY single day lately- I feel like I have the flu by about 2-3 in the afternoon every day.
My anxiety peaks when the fevers are there.
I am tired of being sent to specialists, doctor's, who continue to either guess or just give me a new diagnosis.
I am feeling nearly helpless right now to be honest.
I've battled this off and on for a year (which I know for some of you that's nothing considering the length of your battles) but when all this began last Christmas, I REALLY believed I'd be over it by now.And given my family history, I am terrified that "whatever" this is that's wrong with me, is here to stay.
poster:spriggy
thread:564237
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/20051003/msgs/564342.html