Posted by xbunny on August 30, 2005, at 11:23:05
In reply to Telling T about Suicidal thoughts, posted by felixbabble on August 29, 2005, at 17:57:09
> Each T I have seen asks the same questions
> 1. Have you ever had suicidal thoughts?
> 2. Have you ever thought about how to commit suicide?
> Anyone have any advice or better yet, experience
These days I always try to answer yes to both if its appropriate and have never been hospitalized because of that. Without a doubt I have found it helpful to be as open and honest as I can muster to the pdoc. I remember once I was feeling pretty ok not anxious not depressed but over and over I was getting suicidal and paranoid thoughts just out of nowhere. I felt like such a fool sitting in the consulting room having an airy jokey chat about work whilst my mind was running over and over 'kill yourself' 'kill yourself' 'hes one of us' 'he knows what your thinking' 'kill yourself before we puts more of these thoughts in your head and controls you more' etc. I was terrified if I told him he would lock me up for sure and I would concoct endless fantasies about how they would torture and brainwash me in the hospital. Eventually on the second such trip I just blurted it out, he didnt instantly commit me instead he very carefully pieced together what I was suddenly babbling about and I felt loads better for getting it out. He offered me a stay in hospital to start different meds if I wanted it, I declined so with my consent we increased my risperdal instead. The risperdal didnt really help but the experience was very valueable I learnt that they wouldnt necassarily commit me for speaking my mind. Later I would go to hospital for this kind of thing and learnt that isnt so bad either. The most torturing I got was having to be out of bed in the morning by 9am, the brainwashing was daytime tv ;-)
Hope you are well, Bunny