Posted by Emily Elizabeth on August 29, 2005, at 22:10:44
In reply to Re: Telling T about Suicidal thoughts, posted by felixbabble on August 29, 2005, at 21:29:44
I would say that most T's and pdoc's are just as invested as you are in keeping you OUT of the hospital unless ABSOLUTELY necessary. They know that it is expensive and (possibly) unpleasant.
Also most T's have a pretty high threshold for that sort of stuff. They hear it often and so they are unlikely to freak out about something that is not worth freaking out about.
That said, I was so afraid to mention suicidal thoughts to my T and pdoc. I felt ashamed, like it made me crazy, like I was being a bad patient. It really only came up after several years of treatment when my pdoc asked me directly. It actually felt like such a relief to be able to talk about it. I felt understood and comforted. And very relieved that she didn't freak out.
If you can find the courage to bring it up, I would do it. One thing that is helpful to me about talking about it is that it helps me know how well my meds are working. When the thoughts are bad, I know I might need to tweak the meds. When they aren't there for several weeks, it is a good sign!