Posted by DoYouKnowHim? on August 26, 2005, at 2:53:52
In reply to Re: Suicidal with pain, posted by Guy on August 25, 2005, at 22:47:49
I am sorry you are going through this, but you are not alone. There are many on this board who have been in the same frame of mind ... and still may be.
First of all, concerning your meds, when you don't get sleep, it makes everything 100 times worse. You have to take care of that problem immediately. I, also, have struggled for 9 years with anxiety, anxiety, anxiety. There were so many times I was hopeless. But I finally found one a few months ago, Seroquel. It takes out that nervous rage of energy I feel. I recommend you trying it. I sleep like a log.
As I'm sure you know, meds are the first step. You have to find something that will calm you down. However, MORE IMPORTANT is that you have to work on CHANGING YOUR MIND. You have to do things to get your mind off yourself and how you are feeling. Anxiety sufferes like us are probably the most self-absorbed people in the world. A great book is the "Anxiety Workbook" by Edmund Bourne. It teaches you techniques to take your mind off yourself and focus on the positives.
A great quote I heard is "life is all about positive distractions." Buy the Susan Jeffers CD "Feel the anxiety and do it anyways." She points out how people with cancer and deadly diseases choose to enjoy life with a great attitude.
There is HOPE, HOPE, HOPE.