Posted by 4WD on July 27, 2005, at 22:55:08
I hate having to take Klonopin. I don't like the way it makes me feel. I have no issues of abuse with it. And yet, I am scared to death that at some point my doctor is going to take me off it. I want to be off it. I hate depending on it. But it feels like my lifeline - the only thing standing between me and the fear that can become unbearable.
Is it weird to feel this way? I get very uncomfortable if I don't have at least a month's worth stashed away. I often take less than prescribed, kind of like I'm saving it up for a time when I might not have enough.
I just keep remembering the times that the fear/terror was so horrible and I had taken myself off Klonopin because I was determined to learn to deal with the fear myself. I remember crawling in the floor, crying and screaming. And I remember Klonopin stopped that.
And yet, I'm terrified of having to take it for the rest of my life. Or even long term. (I've been on it off and on since last October). I'm scared to take it and scared not to.
I take anywhere from .5mg day (usually) to 1mg (rarely) day to none at all if I feel I can get through a day without it.
Anybody else feel like this about their meds?
Marsha
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