Posted by barbaracat on July 14, 2005, at 13:26:55
In reply to Re: Too little Lithium vs. just enough? experience, posted by ramsea on July 14, 2005, at 3:48:37
Aren't mixed episodes just the godawful pits? I was getting them more and more frequently prior to lithium - one long horror after another. Best description for mine is Edgar Allen Poe on bad acid. Hopeless terror, rot and decay. I also couldn't sleep so there was no escape or comfort. I read my journals from those times and don't know how I survived. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, I guess.
I haven't had one mixed states psychotic depression since starting lithium, thank the heavenly hosts, although I've had a few corkers of plain old anergic who gives a rip about life depressions (I'm in one right now in fact). Those are a walk in the park compared to dysphoric mixed and I know what you mean about being grateful. I'm grateful that my current depression is just that and not a nightmare few people would believe. Glad lithium works for us, huh?
Yeah, I'm in a downer and it's since I stopped and restarted lithium - the only thing that's different - and raising Cymbalta 10 to 12mg. At least I can sleep - and sleep and sleep. Which makes me wonder if my recent 10 day hiatus from lithium and then restarting back at 600mg might be contributing to this sluggish lethargy? Even went to get some blood tests to see if I've got some mono type thing going on. Or maybe it's just a kind of lethargic depression instead of the agitated ones I'm used to. - Barbara