Posted by portage on July 12, 2005, at 23:06:47
i saw a tree last weekend, and it absolutely freaked me out. now i'm terrified of the tree, which is up the road from my house, and have no idea why. its appears to be a normal tree. but everytime i look at it i get really afraid of it and dont know why. i feel like i'm hallucinating and i cant stop staring at it, it sort of mezerizes me. it looks like its breathing, which i know doesnt make sense. it has an evil quality, i almost want to take a long detour when i go places to avoid seeing it. what the heck IS that? when someone is terrified of a tree?
i know what it is. comical.i've never been afraid of any kind of tree before. or flower. or bush. or anykind of vegetation. never of any inanimate objects, either. never been afraid of one specific thing, every single time i see it. untill last weekend.
this is off the subject of the begining of my post, but
has anyone been cured of panic disorder? i mean, like, forever?i went to the emergency room yesterday, knowing it was only a panic attack but was feeling myself die. 7X my normal dose of alprazolam didn't help, or, if it did, not for more than an hour.
i knew they couldn't do anything for me, but still, felt like i had to be there.
took my pulse, which was 135 and my blood pressure, which was normal. i was holding my face crying and my legs were spasming. it was maybe the worst attack i've had.my sister took me, and she was an angel. she's never witnesed anyone freak out like that, and knew exactly what to say to me to help calm me.
for the past 35 hrs i havent been able to sleep, and have had this perpetual feeling of being right on the edge of terror- a dissociation and weird, slow feeling in my limbs, my face and chest hot and my arms freezing.
the one good thing that came out of this is that now my sister is involved, i can call her if it ever happens again. i used to just curl up on the floor alone. also, my parents know how very serious i am, and now i feel like i can talk to them about it also. i'm a bit less helpless this way.
if anyone has any insight into my tree issue, please do tell.
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