Posted by Maxime on June 28, 2005, at 19:21:15
In reply to Re: Absolutely . . . » Maxime, posted by 4WD on June 27, 2005, at 22:33:14
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> Maxime,
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> My mom once told me (when I was in the middle of a deep depression) that she just didn't know what was going to become of me, that I must just be "sorry" (as in no account). She was wanting me to get a job and I could barely get my teeth brushed. I think I was about 23 at the time.
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> We just have to be here, all of us, for each other.
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> You've already proved how strong you are. How else could you have made it so long with all you'e had to deal with?
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> Marsha
>I know. I wish she did know about everything I have been through. When I was living in the U.S. I lost my job without notice (along with 20-25 %) of the staff (non profit). I didn't want to go back home. I felt like a failure and I just couldn't go on. I had already packed everything because I was moving and I thought well if I kill myself, at least everything will be packed and my family won't have to deal with it. The attempt didn't work. I spent days in ICU AND NO ONE CAME FROM HOME TO SEE ME! I finally got out of the hospital, depressed as anything, finished packing, hired movers, sat for 20 hours on a train because I couldn't afford a the place and arrived home. My stuff arrived a couple days later. I unpacked what I could and stored the rest. I did all this BY MYSELF. I should have been in the hospital. So I am not weak like she tells me I am.
And then the same as you I was going through a depression and she wanted me to work and I could barely move. I was in a catatonic state!! She doesn't understand and doesn't want to understand. I embarrass her I think. I don't know ....
Sigh parents. They don't mean to hurt us, but they can sometimes.
Maxime
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