Posted by linkadge on June 18, 2005, at 4:00:54
In reply to Re: Is There A Magic Pill?, posted by Declan on June 17, 2005, at 22:30:25
I have gotten to the point where In many ways I don't care. It seems that there is no way of communicating my state fully to the doctors.
You get a little bit of intuition about how your brain works and how you respond to the drugs.
I can't really describe how most antidepressants make me so akathesic that I want to kill myself.
They say, oh thats just the depression talking. But I *know* what I know, its like I just feel it is impossable to get anywhere with the doctors so I just give up.
Last summer I was *really* intent on getting better. I wanted so much to enter the next school year not suicidal. I complained and compained about how the celexa was making things worse, but they couldn't see how that was, so I ended up trippling my celexa, which did nothing but make me a zombie who slept 24/7 and didn't care about anything he used to enjoy. And I am not the type of person who is going to say "I told you so" I'd rather just give up.
The psychiatric community, which is supposed to improve the state of learned helplessness, does a good job at making it much worse for me.
I feel I have had psychiatry do to me what Michael Jackson's plastic surgeons have done to him.
I need some doctor who is going to throw away his patient records and give me a fresh assesment.