Posted by holymama on May 22, 2005, at 22:49:45
Or am I crazy to consider it?
I was in the hospital 1 year ago for depression; I'm bipolar and although I'm much more *stable* now, I'm so annoyed with my mood swings/sense of boredom or mild state of depression or absense of hypomania and inspiration or whatever it is...that I often feel like I want to give up on this med thing.
I have my life much more under control now -- three young kids, back in grad school part time, working part time, my depressions are so much more mild. But my creative bursts are gone, my passionate and deep side is subdued. I feel like I spend a great deal of time feeling mildly depressed and uninspired, unfocused, slightly dumb.
I cycle still.
Is this all I can expect?
Should I expect more from my medication?
Should I try a different med?
Go off meds and see how I do? Or is that too dangerous?
I just hate feeling this dumb. My mind feels blank.
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