Posted by iforgotmypassword on April 28, 2005, at 12:41:13
cant hold my face properly, and often when i look in the mirror my face its unnaturally hideous. i can concentrate and resist stretching it but it doesnt help at all. cant talk to people sensibly. i dont know what to askk since ive been on everything. i was supposed to get info for my doctor on pramipexole cant get that printed and done. but that wouildnt neccessarily help anyway. it really feels like my brain is being put this way so i will always lose. no one ever gets to understand and not me. this is not making sense. nothing i do helps. the person i have i know is not worth saving but i keep trying and this keeps going on forever. (i have very disgusting problems, and they are not anything that will go away likely unless the person is changed.) this is still not making sense, i cant even correct my own mistakes properly. i cant tell if i care or what i feel, i was crying a while ago, but i couldnt tell the person on the distress centre whether i was really upset or that was happening on its own. i had a lot to do today. i never do anything i cant want to do anything. all i do is eat and lurk around people. im not in any danger of killing myself, but the best thing for me would be to see myself end. im going to post this and try to post again to make sense. but would there be any medication that would make me like a functional person in the world? or at least something a spect scan (?) or an eeg or something could tell me what is wrong?? please dont worry about my safety if you do, there is a worker in my building that is seeing me every little bit but theres nothing he can do to help me it always seem and theres nothing i can do to talk about anything (What is that "***"-thymia word that means state of not being able to describe ones feeling) but im completeley safe. just please if any one has any advice at all or what i should do please share, thanks!!!
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thread:490896
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