Posted by JenStar on April 24, 2005, at 23:36:44
hi all,
I'm scared of being on Lexapro. I'm scared that it will not start working, or that it WILL work and then will stop. I'm scared that there is NO medicine in the world that can help my anxiety. What will I do then? I'm scared that maybe in a few years all kinds of studies will come out linking Lex/other meds to brain cancer, Alzheimer's, brain decay, and other monstrous disorders.I'm scared of being labeled "mentally defective" by people who don't understand anxiety. I'm angry at myself for being "weak" and unable to control my anxiety and depression; although I've been told many times that it isn't my fault, I still inherently believe that if I were stronger or doing something differently, I wouldn't have this issue.
I'm scared of my future. I'm relatively young, and if I'm this anxious NOW, what will it look like in ten years?
I'm scared of being scared of all this stuff. I wish my brain (is it really my brain?) were able to function "normally".
And these thoughts are like a little undercurrent in my mind, running on repeat behind everything I think and say and do. I function and look OK on the outside (I AM OK, really) but I have my worries.
Does anyone else face these fears, too? How do you overcome them? Any advice? I could use it!
JenStar
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