Posted by Corafree on April 21, 2005, at 11:45:10
In reply to ADD, posted by Rhonda Jo on April 21, 2005, at 8:11:39
Hi Rhonda Jo.
Did you spend a lot of yrs struggling w/ 'sort of catching onto things', before you realized you had ADD? Maybe I am older than you. I know I have lived that way forever.
I took the ADD test online a couple mos back and scored way up in the 90s. My P said if no one in my fam' has ADD, I don't! I know; I've heard that is a very 'limited' observation!
Thing is, if I had been treated for ADD 25 yrs ago, I may not have come to a frightening unreal breakdown (literally crumpled physically under all the overwhelming 'head' stress) last month, and now be dependent upon a regimen of mood stabilizers and Valium which is working well. I am sad I have to have these meds to live.
What I mean is ... if I had been able to think things out properly and clearly, my choices over the past 25+ years may have been different! I may not have opened doors to trauma after trauma. Looking back, can see my responsibility in every trauma I experienced. Exception; the physical violence sustained that left me with chronic back pain. But then ... I even wonder about that.
I wonder would a trial of an ADD med even help after so much damage done. Would like to think maybe would, and maybe I could actually make a decision on my own. Most importantly, I would like to be able to look back upon my choices and tell myself, .. wow, that was a good choice I made and I am proud of myself!
Instead, I CANNOT in retrospect say that (unless I rationalize) about many choices in my life.
Do you see any similarity in your situation and mine?