Posted by Maxime on April 13, 2005, at 0:16:44
In reply to Re: No more meds and I feel good!, posted by Shy_Girl on April 12, 2005, at 23:32:41
((( Shy-Girl ))) You are very sweet. But I really am happy! Some people don't recover from depression or ever respond to meds. I'm just one of those people. I mean I don't even care what might be coming out in 5 or 10 years from now because my body doesn't respond "normally" to meds.
I've spent a lot of money on alternative meds including Empower. I've have responded to two meds - Prozac and Parnate and they both pooped out on me. But it was nice to feel the veil of fog lift even if only for a little while. And I also made other people happy because they saw expression in my face and I was fun and funny and I made people laugh! I'm a people pleaser so that made me even happier. But then the depression came back worse than ever and people became sad or upset. Many friends left me. They said "Maxi, you are taking all these pills you should be well". Others like my mom told me not to take pills. But I told her that I needed them just like a diabetic needs insulin.
So now she is happy because I am not taking as many pills.So now I am free from all that. Not the depression of course or the eating disorder ... but the struggle of trying to please everyone. The stuggle of trying meds that make me sick or psychotic or lactate or break out into hives. I don't have that burden anymore. It's gone now. I don't have to see doctors who don't listen to me. I just have to check in with them, so they feel like they are doing their duty by at least seeing me. They can be free of guilt. I'm no longer a burden.
Peace,
Maxime
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