Posted by Maxime on March 10, 2005, at 22:25:58
In reply to Re: ok, im back on adderall/ i need someone to tal, posted by mmcconathy on March 9, 2005, at 21:47:55
Matt, you have a lot of things working AGAINST you. First of all your age. You are that age where you have no identity, or rather you feel as though you don't. Secondly, your parents ... I will leave it at that.
But there are things you can do to help yourself. You could find a social worker and see about getting out your living situation. You could go IP for a bit after your exams and give your body and brain a rest. No one can do anything to help you ... you have to help yourself. You have push and push to get results. Focus on getting better then everything else will fall into place in due course.
You need to stop focusing on brain scans etc. There is nothing wrong with your brain. Nothing is going to show up that says "oops, Matt needs dopamine here". You need to be properly evaluated. Is there someone at your school that can help? Where are you with school? Are you in college yet? I don't know what age you finish high school in the U.S. Where I live we only go to Grade 11. In other parts of Canada you go to Grade 12 and sometimes 13. Is there a counsellor you can see.
You make a lot of references to God. Is there some clergy person you can talk to?
Now this sounds mean, but I don't know how else to phrase it ... do you have friends? Someone close that you can trust? I have no one right now and I am 36. My friends have left me. They couldn't put up with my moods and they eventually abandoned me one by one. Now I trust NO ONE. I don't want to make any friend in real life
So there you have it. You are up and down and you need to be stablised. You haven't destroyed anything in your brain. You need a FULL psychological assessment and this should be done while you are IP. Are you covered by you parent insurance right now?
So start being your own advocate. No one is going to save you so you have to save yourself. And you just have to do it because you have no choice. You just do it. So to sum it up:
1- Find a social worker who can help you get out of your house.
2- Go IP and screw whatever your parents think or say.
3. Talk to a clergy person if that will help.
4. Go IP.
5. Go IP.
6. Fight like you have never fought before
7. Be your own advocate if you can
8. Talk to a real life friend.
9. Go IP
10. Remember to PLAY every day.
Maxime
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