Posted by MoparFan91 on February 22, 2005, at 19:39:13
I found a while ago that not all (Hypo)mania is of the euphoric/happy kind, which some call White Mania. Some mania can involve anger/agitation, rudeness, and rage. Some refer to this kind of (Hypo)mania as Black Mania.
In my experience, I have the following symptoms during dysphoric (hypo)manic episodes:
Being rude to people and acting smart towards others
Shouting of foul language and namecalling
Honking the horn a lot while driving as others seem slow
Snapping at people and going off on others
Sometimes road rage
Noises seem amplified
Irrational anger and being mad as a hornet
Being very argumentative and thinking "It's MY way or NO way!"
Dyphoric Mania is much different from Mixed States. One involves anger towards 'others' & an attitude, and the other involves anger towards 'yourself' along with severe depression. Some people say that Dysphoric Mania is the same as Mixed States, but they are very distinct in my experience.
I usually have the Dysphoric Manic states when on antidepressants. I got way agitated and angry on Zoloft, and Lexapro made me all wound up and excited/euphoric at first which progressed to anger and dysphoria. Paxil made me express way too much anger inappropiately, and on it, I stirred up trouble at different places. Thankfully, I rarely have these episodes when unmedicated, but I have a lot mixed states instead. Wellbutrin worsened the mixed state.
So, what are your own symptoms when having a dysphoric manic episode? What things do you usually do during these states?