Posted by prodgirl on September 15, 2004, at 23:19:27
Anyone else suffer from loss of friends post bipolar dx? My friends have dropped like flies, not knowing how to deal with the me that isn't superwitty, sarcastic and ready to start her own party.
Truth is, I have always known I was BP. I have been a damn good actress for years, hiding when I was down. Everyone knows me as my nickname, which I know know is my manic alterego. When I started telling people, they didn't respond. I reached out for support and they weren't there. We are talking about friends of 7-10 years, people who have been through everything together. Could they just not deal with the truth that no one really knew me?
I am starting to feel like I never really knew myself either.
I have been struggling like hell for year and a half, still can't find the right meds. I was afraid of who I would be when they kicked in, I am more afraid now of who I am when I am all over the place.
Is it wrong to miss the manic me?
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