Posted by nolagirl on August 15, 2004, at 19:30:49
In reply to Re: enjoyment, posted by tendency on August 13, 2004, at 11:26:22
I really identify. Over the past 4 years ( been on and off meds for 14) I have lost all interest in things that used to give me pleasure as well as lost my sense of self. I don't even have facial expressions anymore. Good for wrinkle prevention perhaps. I too have been on many ssri's and am now off lexapro for the past two weeks. I live in the states and am uninsured at the moment so can't really afford a pdoc now. I am hoping that by getting free of meds for awhile I can rediscover myself. I had never heard of anhedonia before but it suits where I am at to a tee. I have felt very hopeless the past few years because I just can't seem to break out of this numbed state. Wellbutrin worked way back but ultimately the rage and lack of impulse conrol side effects took a toll and I stopped. I know that I need to find a good doctor and start the process again. I just feel that it's a trick bag that will again disappoint. Blah, blah, blah. I am even rambling in a monotone.