Posted by mike lynch on August 12, 2004, at 2:01:50
In reply to Re: enjoyment, posted by JahL on August 12, 2004, at 1:21:04
> > It seems that if I never feel that good again, life isnt worth living--even if this so-called depression lifts enough to become bearable. I feel that the euphoric periods have ruined me in some way. Can I ever be satisfied with anything less now?
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> I can relate. I had never felt anything resembling normalcy until I was suddenly blessed with a few weeks of blissful euthymia on SSRIs a few years back. I suddenly realised what I had been missing out on my whole life. If I can't recapture something approaching that feeling I will gladly catch the bus sooner rather than later.
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> I likened it to being shown around Heaven before being given your permanent berth in Hell. (not religious BTW)
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> J.
For whatever reason changing the dosage suddenly...or taking my med at a different time period brings out a couple days of what I would call normalcy and mere lucidness when it comes to everything including mental functioning...I have no idea why..but I just seem to function normal during this period of change..But it where's off..funny during this *period* people are said to be at risk of an increase of suicidal thoughts..whatever sparks this seemingly has the exact opposite effect on me...I 've heard other people who experienced this effect as well..very vague explanations though..
If all of my future plans don't work out im just going to go on this awkward schedule..not knowing the potentiol problems that can arise from constantly changing the dose(if there are any) of the med...but frankly i really dont' care anymore..i just want to be normal and this seems to be the closest i can get to it..
poster:mike lynch
thread:375818
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