Posted by linkadge on August 10, 2004, at 14:13:03
In reply to enjoyment, posted by robot on August 9, 2004, at 22:43:40
I can relate to you in some terms. I had a single, hypomanic episode, and ever since they brought be down from that I've been living in constant fear. The first time I took lithium it took away all confidence I had in myself. It put me into this neitherworld feeling where my mind never stops slowly wiserping to me, you don't know what you are doing everything you try, you will fail.
I have been in the worst state of anhedonia known to man. I think my prefrontal cortex is dammaged because it is almost like I cannot make any sence out of pleasureable things. This constant mild state of worry totally has burned out any remaining pleasure centers in my brain.
We have dropped all mood stabalizers long ago and are just using antidepressants. The more I take, the more disconnected from reality I become.