Posted by starlight on July 23, 2004, at 11:31:46
In reply to Re: Anyone had success on Effexor XR?, posted by Leslie Elliott on July 23, 2004, at 6:06:44
You know, I have a hard time accepting that I need meds as well, and wish that I could do it on my own, especially because I'm very high functioning and recognize that I have a lot going for me. But when I look back through my life, I also recognize that throughout my childhood I suffered from major depression and just felt terrible about myself and life in general. Frankly, I just didn't want to be here. I always chalked it up to the fact that I was abused by my parents and rejected socially because I was too tall, awkward and overweight (which changed completely when I was in my early twenties - late bloomer), but it's hard to really blame it on that and I wonder if my chemistry is also responsible. Or maybe the abuse triggers the chemistry.
I play in a band and had a show last night. This was my second show after having been on effexor for about a month and a half - and it was great. The part I liked the most was that I had so much less anxiety than I normally do on the stage. It felt like home, which is how it should feel - a little bit of nervous energy, but it shouldn't feel overwhelming. I was so pleased with the result and am looking forward to playing more!