Posted by LynneDa on June 9, 2004, at 13:33:00
In reply to Re: Lexapro Wearing off after a year?, posted by MoTucker on June 9, 2004, at 13:08:59
Oh MT. . . you are making yourself crazy, aren't you! :-)
I wish I had started taking Lex when I was planning my wedding (2nd marriage in July 2002 as a 39-year-old, 3 kids between us, fiance in grad school full time due to a job lay off so not around much, sold my condo, moved and planned a big wedding in 6 months, etc.!).
Here's the deal on kids - you get a lot more back from them than you do a puppy and you have 9 months to prepare for the responsibility :-). You'll do fine!
Don't let your negative talk start rolling, take your Klonopin and get rid of it. Now is not the time to try to change, correct, amend, etc, your personality. Just maintain while you plan your wedding . . . and work on yourself later!! Kind of cynical advice I guess, but pretty realistic.
The negative self-talk is the biggest thing I have to work on in therapy. It is so hard, I know, it's like it has a life of its own! You'll get to it eventually. At least you recognize the things you need to work on. Many people aren't even that far along! I just know that I have to stop thinking after 11pm or I'm in trouble!
Take care!
~ Lynne
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Thanks for your support, Lynne. I can't tell you how much it means to hear someone relate - especially to the negative-talk. I wish I could control it.
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> The physical responses I have are directly related to the panic attack. Usually within 5 minutes of the episode's start I have it happen. It depends upon the severity of the attack, however. The gagging only happens when it's particularly bad.
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> Maybe I will look into Wellbutrin or an increased dose of the Lexapro. I was hoping to some day get some counseling to deal with my root issues and maybe get off the medicine - but it's not looking good for me. I might be a tough case.
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> We did get a new puppy - which I think has oddly exagerrated my stress at work and stress about trying to get my wedding planned. He is a lot of work - and is so NEEDY. It's scary to have someone need you. Last night's anxiety started with "we are nuts to have gotten this dog" and ended with "if I can't handle a dog how will I handle children and if I don't want to have children maybe that means I'm cold or maybe it means that I haven't found the right man because why wouldn't I want to have children with the one I love..."
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> And on and on it went.
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> Thanks again for your support. I'm very glad to have found this message board.
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> M.T.
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