Posted by Kirsty on March 17, 2004, at 12:00:53
Hi- I'm new so I apologize if i'm intrusive. At this point i just need a little advice or whatever. I was diagnosed as bipolar a year ago and have since been hospitalized twice for suicide attempts. I hate the fact that I'm eighteen and don't want to be alive. I moved across the country to go to school, and i thought that i could do this, that i could be okay. I can't stay on my meds because I can't think when I'm on them. And it scares me that i do my best thinking and work when i'm somewhat manic. I'm just lost and confused and feeling like a screw up. I got out of the hospital a week ago and i'm withdrawing from the semester and just going home. Everything's just upside down right now. I'm on lithium, clonazepam, and celexa but frankly i don't know how long i'll stay on them. I've seen so many doctors, and tried different things, and nothing helps. i'd love to not be miserable but i don't want to give up the happy, unrestrained, quick thinking me. I don't know what to do anymore. Any thoughts would be appreciated.
poster:Kirsty
thread:325284
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