Posted by LynneDa on February 16, 2004, at 14:53:32
In reply to Re: Hope in the Works, posted by mrs c on February 16, 2004, at 14:38:14
Hi Mrs. C. -
I'm at about 4 months too and I had a huge backsliding event last Friday night, precipitated by a couple of days of my old obsessive bad feelings creeping in. So . . . you are not alone!
When those creepy feelings come back, are you able to set them aside after a shorter time than before and move on with your day? If so, then you are getting better! It's an uphill climb to change thought patterns, whether thru medication or therapy, and I assume we'll all have some backsliding from time to time. I would highly recommend therapy. I am about ready to get back into it myself and I'm sort of dreading it, but I know I am strong enough now to deal with some of my uglies!
Good luck and try not to get discouraged!!!!
Richard, So glad to hear that you are doing better. What a difference eleven weeks can make. You have been such a great supportive voice to me throughout my daily struggles and I hope you continue to visit this board!
> To everyone,
> I feel that my struggle is not yet over. Recently some of those old creepy feelings that things aren't right are coming back into my days. I can't really pin-point what is wrong, I just feel uneasy and worried. I may be at the point where I need to up my dosage a little bit. I have been at 10mg for 4 months now. Just these past few weeks the bad thoughts have been trying to come back more and more. This is so hard for me to admit but I know that I am safe with all of you. I'm so afraid that I will come to the point where I was in the beginning which was constantly dreading the day because of my fear of serious illness. Every little syptom I would have I would run to my medical book or the internet and obsess constantly about what illness I could have. Sleep was my only escape from my thoughts. Irrational, yes, totally, but so real to me when it takes over! I see my doc March 3rd and will wait until then to see if this passes or if I may need more help. I also plan to consult a therapist like so many of you do. I really believe that I need the extra help with my coping skills to try and change my way of dealing with these thoughts. Any advice that any of you can give will be so greatly appreciated. You all have been so comforting to me over these past months and I continue to rely on you. Bye for now. Mrs. C