Posted by Simcha on December 18, 2003, at 0:27:54
Hi,
It's been a long time since I posted anything here. I've been in remission from MDD for about three years. Everything was going swimmingly with my mix of meds:
40mg Celexa (am)
200mg Wellbutrin SR (am)
600mg Neurontin (pm)Then for the past month or so depression has crept back into the picture. I slept the entire weekend. I called in sick on Monday because I woke up too late to make it to work and I was too depressed to go. I have not been eating regularly. (Just not hungry, this is not like me.)
It's the same old familiar depression. I went to work on Tuesday. It took all the energy I had. I went to my therapy appointment on Tuesday and my therapist told me to see my p-doc.
I called in sick today. I went to see the p-doc and now he's switching me to WellbutrinXL 300mg.
I'm going to Chicago on Saturday for a week to visit family. My p-doc is not thrilled that I'm going out of town while needing a med change. He said that I must see him on my return so that we can evaluate more.
This makes me so angry. I thought that I had this depression thing licked. I also thought that this was "The Holiday Blues." Well, it isn't so...
I have too much at stake. I'm a full-time grad student. I'm working full-time. I'm also dating someone. I'm used to being highly functional. I hate being back to my old self.
I'm feeling alone in this. I decided to come here because I know that some of you understand what this is like.
Has anyone else been stabilized for years only to see depression come back? I hate med changes. I feel like I'm starting over....
(Ok, I'm feeling sorry for myself and I'd like some support.)
Well, I start the new formulation of Wellbutrin tomorrow with the increased dosage. I hope it works and does not make me crazy. Other med changes in the beginning sent me for many loops. Again, I have too much at stake now to lose it...
Simcha :-(
poster:Simcha
thread:291177
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