Posted by Eddie Sylvano on December 17, 2003, at 9:21:01
In reply to re: response to everyone , posted by billym on December 12, 2003, at 20:58:33
> I definitely relate to what you said, Eddie. It is different from social anxiety, but as another poster pointed out, the symptoms greatly overlap with social anxiety.
-----------I feel like I can identify with you a lot more than I can with most people on the board, problem wise. A couple of curious questions...
Do people often tell you that you speak too softly, mumble, and are hard to understand? I get this a lot, and I'm wondering if it's related to this.
Can you point to any particular causes for your social reservation? I mentioned my father, but it's clear to me that I also owe a lot of my problem to being betrayed by one of the only real (and "best") friends I've ever had (he was secretly seeing my former wife, and married her after she divorced me).I've always been a shy person, but I was never so reserved until my teens, and it just got worse after that. I'd be interested to hear if you find any medications that help. Really, it's all about inhibitions. Alcohol helps that, but I can't be drunk all the time, nor do I want to. The most transforming drug experience I've ever had for this was LSD, which was just remarkable. Childlike happiness and love of all people. Again, not something you'd want to do for a living, or at all for many people (i.e. don't do this because of my experience, anyone).
Anyway, I hope you find something that helps. It's no fun to live on the sidelines.
poster:Eddie Sylvano
thread:288792
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