Posted by DeeJay on December 10, 2003, at 16:23:49
In reply to Re: Wellbutrin for anxiety wha??? » DeeJay, posted by Dog on December 10, 2003, at 15:26:03
Surreal is an EXCELLENT word for this whole discovery about our moms. I experienced the SAME THING, at the very last moment, I was in my brother's room, listening to a CD, when my sister-in-law came in and told me "it's time" and my poor dad was so angry and tired of the whole thing that he aggressively told my mom to "go, I can't take this anymore" and she did. Took that last breath, kinda seemed to sit up a bit, and her face immediately turned grayish purple. Man, what an experience I don't wish on anyone.
I have my B.A. in Communications....and how I got my job was an accident. My dad's girlfriend is a research nurse where I work and an opening for a "secretary" became mine.....only after I met with my doc/boss, and we discussed I would do "more research and write stuff" other than "medial secretary stuff." Hey, as long as my foot is in the door. I have a pretty good background in writing and research and that's what she needed. I was also a psych major for a year until I just didn't have enough brain power to finish, so I switched to what I know. It also helps that my doc/boss and I have alot in common. Her mom has cancer and is being treated at our hospital.
So, I truly believe that I am here for a reason...maybe because it was my initial dream to be a psych and the fact that I had a difficult time with my moms death....so I'm making up for it by "assisting" and "being around cancer patients" and learning a whole lot. As far as training goes, I'm still in the process.
My own psych (not boss) heard my story and believes that I don't need extensive therapy, that I have delayed grieving and a helluva lot of insight due to my job, however, I need a little help. That's where the Wellbutrin comes in. I still don't know though....I was a Paxil kid for a few years, but man. I didn't feel anything! No emotions....and I would cry for no reason and had no peripheral vision in my life...(not physically). It was horrible.
I'm rambling on, but it's so great to know that my experience has been "experienced" by another human being, and all too exact.
Right now I'm researching magnesium and antidepressants and have become super interested in the need our bodies have for the magnesium, and how little we tend to "fix" our mental mis-haps with obvious lacking nutrients. Who would have thunk that???....;)
and yes, I will have another.