Posted by LynneDa on October 24, 2003, at 17:49:49
In reply to 2nd day on Lexapro--concerns, posted by Braxl on October 22, 2003, at 16:19:59
Hi Braxl -
We're just a day apart. I started Lexapro on Tues. 10/21. It's been great so far, some side effects but not bad. I had a weird, similar feeling to you about missing my depressed self and what that will mean.I've been depressed for many years and it's been so bad the last 5 years, that I finally decided to try meds . . . very scary thought. I didn't want anyone to think I was weak and I didn't want my personality to change. The weirdest thing is that yesterday, I sort of missed my old bitchy, crying, insecure self. Like I felt safe being that way. Now I have to be the good self that I was for most of the years that I *handled* depression and anxiety.
It will take a while for us to adjust to this new feeling, but I really think you will find new strengths and new emotions from which to pull your creativity. You weren't given that talent for nothing!! Good luck!
~ Lynne
Howdy All,
> I found this board 2 days ago--the day I started on Lexapro. I was doing a web search looking for info and found all of you! You all seem very supportive of each other and I think that's great!
> I went to my pdoc because I'd lived with depression for 15+ years and never sought help. I had it all though--disinterest in life, suicidal, fits of anger, etc. A blow out with my girlfriend over something minor finally made me decide to seek help.
> Ok, so it's my second day on 10mg, and I'm starting to feel it already. The first day I had nausea that lasted only 3 hours. Yesterday I had a headache that went away with rest. I've felt ever so slightly tired after each time taking it. Today I feel a little spacey, things aren't bothering me like they used to. I think my mood is changing.
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> My question to all of you is: were you apprehensive about getting help either through Lexapro or counseling? I ask because I am an artist. This depressed, loathing feeling is all I've ever known. At the same time I feel this has given me my creativity. Like being "crazy" had given me an identity. And I don't mean to use the word crazy in an insulting manner. What I mean is I wonder if coming back to center will make me less creative? Don't get me wrong though, feeling depressed most of the time isn't fun either.
> Have any of you wrestled with this? Being afraid of what is to come, even if it promises to be good?
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