Posted by ace on July 18, 2003, at 1:46:04
Well today I decreased my dose of Zyprexa from 7.5mg to 5mg due to memory probs.
Everything was fine until about 12pm. I noticed I started to feel reall agitated, anxious. Oh my goodness! It's akathisia! It's akathisia! I scream! I am suffering emergent akathisia from lowering the dose, just when it was working so great. The jittery feeling continued for a couple of hours. Now I'm going to have to try crappy Clonidine. It's not fair I said. The derealization/anxiety was almost 100% gone. Things got worse: "what happens if this 'akathisia' never goes away??" I was about to see my doctor all in a huff.
Well, guess what: it went away. But gues what my last 6 meals had been in the last 12 hours- I had this for breakfast and lunch just before the 'akathisia' showed: Ice cream with sugar and porridge. Now I'm not talking an ordinary serve of Ice cream. I went through a bucket last night and this morning! With sugar on top of porridge too!
Now guess what all this excess sugar does to me (and a lot of others): it hypes you up, gets you jittery, anxious, and makes you want to move (even when your moving)
I've actually had the same feeling a few times in the past when I've overdosed on sugar! Wasn't on any med then!
So, this is what happens when your self-absorbed like myself, and most of us here. It's not that we are bad people loving ourselves, it is the fact that we are very sensitive to our goings on.
I made a disaster out of nothing. They say when you die most of the fears you envisioned never happened- almost all!
The antidote to this self-absorbtion is , I think, to look for the good in everything, and cultivate a sense of being blessed for being alive. Of course easier said than done when your not in remmision. But when the right med kicks in give it a try- I certainly have to keep practicing!
Ace.
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